Pahela aur aakhri pyar – Anamika

Hi frnds mera naam anamika main odisha ki rehne wali hun main yahan ki almst sari lvstry padhi hun to mujhe ye laga ki sayed mujhe bi apni lvstry share karni chaiye baat undino ki ha ma jab 11th me thi ma bahat achi stdnt thi baba ki sabse ladli beti thi sabse pyari beti phir meri jendegi me koi aaya jo mujhe badal ke rakh diya mujhe pyar byar pasand hi nai tha yeh sab bakwas lagta tha dhoka jhut lagta tha jab mera 11th ka starting hua tha usi saal woh apni faimly ke sath hamare colony me naya aaya the unka btech ka last year tha.woh unke gharme ek hi the to hamesa room me padai nai to laptop me. ma tutn jate waqt aur ate waqt chahe barish ho ya dhup wanhi khade rahte the mujhe bahat ajib lagta tha kisi na kisi bahane se baat karne ate the ma unse normaly baat karti thi respect se woh bade the na isliye phir ek din unhone mera no liye clg me ho ya tutn din var msg karte the cls khatam hote hi ma rplz karti thi aur hum normaly baten karte the ek din aise hin bole ki mujse baat karti ho kisiko boli nai ma boli usme batane ki kya baat ha ma to sabse chat karti ho to unhone bola ma tumhe sabse alag socta hun aur tum mujhe sabke jaise sochti ho mujhe bura laga ma boli bura lagne wali kounsi baat ha to woh bole chodo kuch aur baat karte han mane kaha thik ha phir hum normaly bat karne lage phir 1din baton baton me achanak se bole ki tumhara koi b.f ha to mane bol diya ki mujhe yeh sab bilkul pasand nai yeh sab bakwas ha aaj kal koi kisise sacha pyar nai karta doston ki stry sunke to yahi lagta ha ki b.f sare har jhute hote han to unhone bola sare bf aise nai hote han mane bola jo v ho mujhe yeh sare ladke ek jaise lagte han aur aaj kal to ladkiya v kam nai han mujhe kisi pe yakin nai ha phir woh bole mujh pe v nai ma v to ladka hun mujhe ajib laga aur ma boli kya matlab toh thodi dair baad bole ma tumse pyar karta hun.ma boli majak mat karo ok bole nai ma tumse sach me bahat pyar karta hun ma boli mujhe jante ho phir v yeh kaise bol rahe ho bole ma tumhe itna pyar karta hun ki tumhe ek din yakin ho jayega ki duniya me har koi aisa nai hota mere pyar me itni takat v ha ki tum badal jaogi aur mujhe yakin karogi mujse pyar karogi bas ek bar han bol do ma sab kuch karunga jis se tumhe yakin ho jayega.paheli baar kisiki baton me sachai tha ma unki baat samajne lagi unko samajne ki kosis ki dhire dhire unki kahi hui baat sach ho gayi ma badal gayi unse pyar karne lagi aur kuch din baad unka job ho gaya woh mumbai chala gaye wanha jane ke kuch din baad unme changes aane lage jiske liye sirf ma imp thi unke liye unke doston unki faimly imp hone lagi mujhe isse koi pblm nai tha ma to khus thi lekin mujhe chodke aur sab kuch jayda imp ho gaye aur kuch din chala gaya sab thik tha majak masti hamesa ki tarha lekin pata nai achanak se kya ho gaya woh mera cl rcv nai kiye itni bar cl ki rcv nai msg itna di ek v msg ka rplz nai aur online rahte han v chat turn off rahta ha msg karo to no rplz aaj ku 2yr ho gaya ek cl nai ki msg nai.aur ab unki faimly v yanha nai ha. main unka intejar kar rahi hun aur karti rahungi……..mera dil kahta ha sab thik ho jayega.

Plz frndz suggest me what shoud i do now? pls reply me if you have any idea.